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MIX EMOTIONS

im kinda drunk while i type all this out.
i wanna write it all here becoz i dun wanna forget.
this 21st birthday or mine.
i went to meet my god uncle with my aunt at boat quay.
had a nice surf n turf. (ribeye & prawns with a portion or salad n chips)
nice. had a glass or borbon coke.
he was relatively supervisual. Stressing on how happy he is to see us all. esp mi all grown up.
headed down to chinatown area. 146 neil road.
My father n mother plus father's wife was there.
Drank... felt proud as my father introduced mi to his friends.
I got this gold 21st pendant.
Somehow i smoked in front of all of dem.
Somehow i feel their heartahce.
Their heartache becoz dey arent involved in my growing up process..
becoz dey dun knoe mi.
many birthday songs many wishes..
im happy overall...
but im kinda sad .... sad im family aint complete... today is my first time huggin my dad.. i held my tears back..
i held my tears back when he was half drunk sharing how much he regret not being responsible as a father.
How much he is doting his son becoz he miss mi...
yes... he said he missed mi..
im indeed moved....
my mother... i believe she is going thru some rough patch in her life as well.
I jus wish my family and friends happiness.

i went to ball at cckcc went my god uncle messaged mi ..
arrange for a drink ...
ended up a meeting for my family...
for once.. i got this pic of my dad n mother... the last wan was when i was 3.
but sadly i dun haf it wit mi yet.
will upload once i get it.
Headed to meet dem n i went thru a emotional jorney.
i hope tomorrow would be a better day.

I love my father
I love my mother.
I love my god uncle.
I love my aunty.
I love my grandma.
I love my friends. esp. bao pam lie

Please treasure each other while we are fine n healthy.

im kinds emo now. take care.

god bless all my loved ones.
god bless.

posted by five4fighting @ 4:47 AM