for anisia
now that anisia ask mi update so i update lo.
she sian i gotta entertaint her with my entry lo
anyway i jus lost like 170 sing dollars on a mahjong table
everyone im dead broke.
o bar was fine on friday.
lots of bball peeps
ah bao n friends are gone to tioman to enjoy their perfect relaxing weekend.
i jus finished watch the first ever singapore grandprix follow by lateh with feifei
im now waiting for my washing machine to finish its job so that i can go hang my clothes up
i email melvyn but he still didnt reply me.
tml i shud go for driving lesson.
i drank alone at home jus nw while watch F1
i smoked at home for the first time.
this week is a emo week
with no direction to go in life
with no one whom depend on u
with no one to depend on.
i wanna love u
course ended
so now that my casino course has offically ended....
or rather not offically.
my graduation is actually in mid oct.
im now like a aimless headless housefly looking for some jobs
still no news from uob ...perhaps they dun wan mi?
i dunno.
been mahjonging like usual.
went to skool few times with fei n bao wondering around.
not been balling a month since my ankle
im growing fatter like nobodies business
debbie: wo yao chi chicken chop!
yihong: ni yi ching shi yi ker pork chop le hai yao chi chicken chop!
=(
down with headache n fever today.
perhaps is due to the irregular hours i turn in?
went to sentosa last weekend make myself feel so much like a fatass
i miss the days tummy was always flat never have i gotta consider eating wat will cause mi wat!
shit me.
always talking and no action
wanna swim wanna run always end up somewhere else eating n rotting
FUCK man..
went to rebecca birthday last weekend i miss melvyn.
the songs he would sing. the way he will always agree to fetch mi no matter how inconvinient it may b to him.
mailed him but no replies... kinda worried.
got her a watch...hope she likes it...
HAPPI 21ST BEI KER
lao tian bao you
ah niao ping ping an an
lao tian bao you
wo shun shun li li zhao dao hao kong.
lao tian bao you
tian hui diao duo duo qian gei wo
O BAR tonight.
i wanna let go of myself consious self tonight.
im tired.
ALONE
days come and go.
days turn into weeks.
week turn into months.
and soons these months are turning into a year.
its almost a year now since i last felt someone really embracing me with love.
gone was the life where u know wherever u go u wont need to hestitate to share a simple new tat amuse u and that party wont think ur the most irritating kid on earth.
i scroll thru my phone list looking at whom i could jus drop a message to.
thinking if im bothering others life routine.
LONELY should be the word i guess.
but apparantly, im like always with friends bballing, mj-ing thats all i do now.
Except pass 2 tuesday that i got the will power to go SP for a jog
i guess sometimes im alone in a crowd. thats the feeling.
Dun mind me for all these whining ..
it jus gets into mi on n off
currently im reading PS. i love u perhaps thats a contributing factor to all this negative feelings now.
at least that character has someone to grief over.
Meimiao jus reminded me on how long i haven had proper income and proper leg torturing shopping trips.
i wanna get my pay check.
GO SHOOOPPPPPP
Shall go shop of bf like how people shop for undies i guess,
CRAPPY
gd night!
