ah gong.. rest well
Sunday morning.i was awoken aruptly by the call of my father.
Telling me my grandpa has been warded into ICU.
Apparantly, he was admitted into Changi General Hospital due to unbearable pain in the chest area.
According to my father, he collapsed got ER back
he used the electric shock thingy to get his heart back into action.
60 over times he was pump with it go get him back here
SO day after next i kept visiting him. most of the time we was asleep.
time when i happen to see him awake, he nodded he shook his head.
He still understand what we are all going thru.
His kidney was not functioning at all after the ordeal on saturday.
Doc suggested dialysis.
He was reluctant but eventually gave into it.
Dialysis was a risky thing to do taking blood out mean giving him lower blood pressure.
After dialysis, doc said it didnt help much. No urine yet.
He also said he didnt feel any better either.
Things were not going well.
Doc discovered lung infection as well.
Saturday ordeal also cause him to have a 'balloon' inserted into his heart to assist his pumping.
Due to movement, he went for a surgery to adjust the balloon.
Came back weak.
One day after dialysis, doc ask for permisson to go for a surgery to check how many arteries were block.
Results came back discouraging as well.
Arteries connecting half the heart was all totally blocked.
The other half are on the verge of blocking as well.
CGH doc were nt confident about my grandpa condition.
They sugest the surgery was conducted at SGH.
But.
His condition was not stable at all for him to be transported to anywhere.
So this afternoon upon hearing my grandfather is scheduled for the surgery at 1630 pm
I went to visit him after work.
there he was.
awake.
in pain.
teared.
heart ache.
he didnt wan the surgery at all.
perhaps...
he was going thru too much to take.
we managed to kinda talk him into accepting that this surgery has to be done
and he'll be fine.
Due to some urgent cases, my grandpa was push into the operating theatre at 1730pm
2 hours passed.
he was nt back
but a surgeon was back up.
gathered us in.
told us.
Mr Wee is currently very unstable.
Even before we got him into the theatre, his heartbeat stop.
We needed to shock him afew times.
OUr heart ached.
So the surgery went on.
there was this particular artery that couldnt be unblocked at all.
Perhaps it was blocked for few years the doc say.
But on and all he was skipping between the line of live and death.
Doc advice was that things look very grim.
To be prepared for the worst.
My dad interrupted.
Asked the doc wats the percentage of survival.
Doc replied percentage of survival close to zero.
Percentage of death almost 100%
Another dragging 30 min passed
my grandpa is back at the ward.
this time.
i dun recognise him ..
he look so drain
so far away
beside his bed we begged
begged for him to be strong.
To be back with us.
His vital signs drop to zero.
he teared hearing us call for him.
He was gone.
Gone with the wind.
My heart is aching.
So badly
Having not visiting him for 5 years.
Having realised he dote on me so much went i was young.
Having to see that i feel like such a stranger in this griefing family of mine.
Everyone seem so alone.
Im now alone.
The wake is held at Block 355 Tampines ST 33
Gimme a call if u guys are interested to drop by to accompany me for awhile.
My no. 92477305
Take care guys ...
Ah gong. ni fang xin de cu ba.
Wo men tou zhang da le.
Hui hao hao zhao ku zhi ji de.
An xi ba.
Tui bu qi.
Ah yan.
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