tellmiurmeaningoflife

thank you all

Two weeks has passed since my grand father's death.

Im sorry if i didnt host in a well manner for those who made their way down despite the long distance.
Wasnt in a very clear state of mind altough i look cheerful and all .
Frankly speaking till now i haven been able to accept that he is really gone yet
Jus a day ago he smiled at me the next day he is in the box sealed.

I'll like to thank these people whom made their way to tampines for me.
Ah bao Fei Fei Zhi Qiang Shihui Audrey thanks for ur time the first night. i needed u guys alot
Shijie Alex. sorry for missing from work. i knoe u guys had hard days. thanks for coming despite having a tiring day.
Fred, Rebecca, Junying, Raymond & Wilson. Thank you for coming guys. Ur time allowed me to get away quite a bit. Let me whine a bit. Purge quite a bit of steam.
Meimiao & YanMei thank you mm for ur muffins they were good. ask them to put less sugar next time becoz its so sweet of u to actually think of food for me.
Marie thank you for coming even thuo u were alone.
Thank u Weisheng for accompanying me for dinner and allowing to get away for awhile that night.

Also those whom assisted me and touch me with calls and messages like Ono Bao Fei Raymond.
Thank you so much.


During the day my grandfather is suppose to walk the last journey here, my grandma and aunt came to pay their last respect.
So when the priest ask relative and friends to come offer their prayers before the journey begin.
Relatives and all walked forwards some jus stand and prayed.
My grandma whom barely have stamina to walk from one busstop to home.
DROP ONTO HER KNEES
kneeled.
and stand back up for my grandpa.
Al tough that person lying there is a EX in laws.
Im so proud of her.
I guessed my father felt that too.
After like almost 20 years
My father called her 'mother'
Kinda touching for me.
Maybe crappy to some.

im happy the 白金钱 is able to fully pay for the funeral
But according to my grandpa last wish, my father is suppose to settle all outstanding loansharks debt for my grandma n auntie.
which total up to bout 9 k
forking out 4 k.
Its gd ..
Everything should be fine.

Now after this episode of life, im confused if i should continue my distance between my father side family.
Or should i make an effort to keep close with them.
Tell me wat should i do.

posted by five4fighting @ 12:12 AM