tellmiurmeaningoflife

7 days to work

HI all... i've got so much to rank about now.

its been 2 weeks since she is home.
Her condition has been deotoriating at a amazing rate.
She is on morphine already
Now feeding her is quite a challendge.
She asleep instantaneously... even we call out to her.. she will be like semi concious.
barely swollowing.. chew a bit den sleep.
Pills now needs to be smash into powder form.
Cant sit up without aid.. even on the wheel chair she leans totally to a side...
Used to be we need to assist her stand up n walk few steps.
not we r like practiacally carrying her. no strenght to move or even help us a little at all.

10 more days till i depart.
Frankly.. i cant wait to leave.
To run from this heavy shoulder full of accountability n responsibility.
Yet i m so so sure. she is not going to make it .
The day when i drag my laugguage out
As for bao..
I believe he'll be fine moreover he is getting his internet connection done up.
So no worries.
Perhaps 3 months later he is a papa bao already hahaha.

FRIDAY
was at o bar.
benson. ken. was suppose to turn up but didnt in the end.due to some reasons or another.
BUt nonetheless... friday was great la.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMELA N JOYCE
Both walk into the club but dragged out ..
heehee
First time see mr lee chin leong stay at o bar till lights on.
he also another seh ka.
STILL DARE CALL ME NEXT MORNING TELL ME I PANG SEH HIM YTD NIGHT.
i tried so hard asking him to move his ass out of the club.
he jus keep waving the rough fat hands to me. saying gimme awhile more. bu yao fan wo.
GIVE UP.
All i know is my head was super feather lite tat night too..
I dunno how but i did manage to end up at nana for awhile
den my head was too heavy n was tired jus walk out the club n flag a cab back.
HOMED to HUG my LOVER... DUSTBIN.
SAT
Woke up went for a course for caregivers
i learnt more on the mental part rather than the hard skills as in how to move her n all.
i realise no matter how much u say u r prepared for her departure
U will never be prepared
Jus treasure the time u have now becuz its special to u n u wont get it back anymore.
FRiends always tell me debbie gotta be prepare she is suffering here too.
BUt how simple can tat be?
Anyway after the course came home bao kent adeline pam came up for curry chicken by my mother n mahjonged.
SUNDAY
went in JB bought 2 pairs of shoes
HAPPY
n i tell u!
got mmore more more things to bu

posted by five4fighting @ 4:43 PM